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Post by jaxton matthew sanders on Jun 24, 2012 13:25:27 GMT -5
"I thought when you love someone, it's forever.. Not just when they're alive." Mat said, wiping at an eye. "And don't call me Maty.."
"Don't tell Zephyr what to do. And what do you expect Dylan to do? Be fucking alone for the rest of his damn life? Crying over YOU while he goes fucking nuts because he's not getting the one thing that's just as important as air and water?! That's kinda selfish, Mat." Jax ran his fingers slowly over Zephyr's arm, glancing over at him.
"You have a lot of fucking room to talk, Jaxton /Matthew/. You have your boyfriend right there. You're gonna have a family one day! You're probably the luckiest out of all of us! Britt's BEEN dying! If he's dead, who knows?! And nobody has any idea where the other two are! Out of everyone, you've probably got it the best!"
"Mat.."
"Fine, Okay. Fine. I'll go see my fucking cheating boyfriend. But I'm not taking him back."
"Mat.."
"What?!"
"He was gonna ask you to marry him, Mat.."
"Well he sure made fucking good on all his promises, didn't he?" Mat said sarcastically.
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Post by zephyr preston martinez on Jun 24, 2012 14:09:30 GMT -5
Zephyr winced, eyebrows furrowing.
'Way to go, upsetting him like that.'
'Yeah, why can't you keep to yourself?'
'Stay out of everyone's business!'
Zephyr listened to Mat and Jaxton arguing, and the arguing in his head, and whimpered, covering his ears.
"I'm sorry..." He choked, curling up against Jaxton. "I'm sorry Mat...."
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Post by jaxton matthew sanders on Jun 24, 2012 14:18:21 GMT -5
Jax wrapped his arms around him, hugging him tightly. He pulled him as close as he could, reaching up to run his hand through the boy's hair. "Shh.. Everything's gonna be okay.." He breathed, kissing the top of his head. It hurt having him so close to his chest, but he wouldn't trade it for anything. He only had so long with the boy. Pain wasn't gonna stop him from loving him.
"Which one of you are coming with me? I'm not going alone because I'm not gonna be talked into staying with him. I'm not his boyfriend anymore." Mat mumbled.
"I can't go. I've got Nevada to look after. And I'm already missing work for being sick. I guess you're going alone because Zephyr isn't going either. Not as sick as he's been."
"Then I'm just not going. End of story." Mat shrugged.
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Post by zephyr preston martinez on Jun 24, 2012 15:03:25 GMT -5
"I haven't been that sick," Zephyr insisted softly, wanted Mat to go. "It's not like he knows, Mat...the only reason he did that is he can't live without it...and you weren't around..." He bit his lip, head pounding as he rubbed at his face. "Shut up..." He whimpered, the voices arguing still, guilt tripping him. He trembled, burying his face, but pulled away from Jaxton's chest.
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Post by jaxton matthew sanders on Jun 24, 2012 15:12:31 GMT -5
Mat sighed, putting his head in his hands. Jax gently ran his hand up and down Zephyr's back, holding him close. "It doesn't hurt. It's okay." He took in a slow breath, tipping Zephyr's chin back to kiss him slowly. "I just don't want anything to happen while you're gone.. And maybe it's selfish, but I really don't wanna be without you. Even if it's just for a couple days." He slowly ran his fingers over his cheek, watching him intently.
"Promise me you aren't gonna tell him where we're at.. I'm going to tell him I'm here and that's IT. I don't want any part of Dylan. Ever." Mat pleaded, twisting the ring around his finger.
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Post by zephyr preston martinez on Jun 24, 2012 15:38:38 GMT -5
Zephyr smiled the slightest. "Mm.." He murmured, voices gradually fading away again.
'You did the right thing,' The last insisted. He relaxed, looking over at Mat. "Just go see him Mat... You loved each other so much.. I doubt he would let that go.
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Post by jaxton matthew sanders on Jun 24, 2012 15:45:01 GMT -5
"Exactly. Loved." Mat mumbled, curling up further in his chair. He looked about to tears over the entire thing, and Jax couldn't remember a time the boy looked so bad. Except when he and Dylan got into their one big fight.
'I didn't mean to hurt him, Britt.. I.. I was just wondering if.. if I'd be enough for him.. He's not like the rest of us..' Mat had cried, clinging to their tour manager. Britt had rocked him for what seemed like an hour before Mat finally fell asleep.
Jax kissed his head, running his fingers gently over his back. "Promise me you won't tell him where we're at, Zeph.. Please.. I'm just telling him I'm alive.. Please.." Mat begged, still twisting that ring.
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Post by zephyr preston martinez on Jun 24, 2012 16:47:20 GMT -5
Zephyr watched him twist the ring around and around, biting at his lip. He didn't want to think that the two would never be a couple again. It made him sad. "I.. I promise, Mat.." He mumbled halfheartedly, eyes saddened at the thought of it. He just hoped that once Dylan knew he was alive and not wanting to be with him, that the other boy wouldn't doing anything stupid in his heartbreak.
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Post by jaxton matthew sanders on Jun 24, 2012 16:54:45 GMT -5
"Why can't I just like.. write him a letter or something so I don't have to go see him?" Mat asked.
"You aren't wiggling out of this one. Going and stealing my boyfriend to go off somewhere to see someone you don't want nothing to do with. And besides, you write like a fucking type writer. Someone could print a letter claiming to be you and it'd look the same." Jax said, and Mat sighed, his hands shaking.
"I don't wanna do this, guys.."
"You didn't wanna go on tour, either. You didn't wanna admit to Dylan you liked him in high school. There's a lot of stuff you didn't wanna do, Mat. And it all payed off. Just tell him hey and be done with it. Tell him you don't feel it's right he's with you. Make something up, if you gotta." Jax shifted his weight, running his hand over Zephyr's side. "It's gonna be okay."
"Why can't you both come?"
"Because I'm sick. And I have a sex addicted teenager to watch after."
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Post by zephyr preston martinez on Jun 24, 2012 17:57:35 GMT -5
Zephyr cleared his throat, watching them quietly. He gazed at Mat sadly, chewing on his lip. "It's gonna be okay Mat..." He insisted, sneezed. "Sorry." He rubbed at an eye, studying Mat, wished he could comfort him. But he knew a hug wasn't enough.
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Post by jaxton matthew sanders on Jun 24, 2012 18:05:54 GMT -5
"I guess.. I'm just gonna go home to a screaming child who isn't even mine." Mat mumbled, getting up out of his chair. He waved to them, then started out the door, chewing on his lip. Jax watched him go, then kissed Zeph's forehead as he sneezed. "G'bless you." He said, gently running his hand up and down his side. "My chest doesn't hurt as bad as I thought it would. I mean, it's kinda like.. bruised sore." He said, trying to change the subject as he reached up to poke the area around it. "It isn't that bad."
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Post by zephyr preston martinez on Jun 24, 2012 18:22:20 GMT -5
Zephyr bit his lip, serious about the offer of Mat staying at his place. "That's good," He breathed, managing a smile Jaxton's way. "Hopefully they'll let you leave.." He kissed him softly.
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Post by jaxton matthew sanders on Jun 24, 2012 18:29:07 GMT -5
"Mmm.." Jax met the kiss, squeezing his side gently. "Why, you're itching to get me home?" He teased, looking up as the nurse came in to give him yet another dose of medicine. He took it, only now realizing he felt much better than he had the morning before. She carefully removed the IV from his arm, and handed him a bottle of juice. Then she took off the oxygen, and left. He drank a bit of the juice, then screwed the cap back on, leaning over to kiss Zephyr slowly.
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Post by zephyr preston martinez on Jun 24, 2012 23:58:34 GMT -5
"Maybe." He smiled, meeting the kiss softly, and began to cough. Pulling away he snickered faintly. "Sorry.." Running a hand through Jaxton's hair slowly, he shifted his weight. He sighed. "Fucking Satan g'imme a break.." He groaned pathetically, tensed as his stomach twisted, gagging softly.
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Post by jaxton matthew sanders on Jun 25, 2012 0:03:03 GMT -5
"It's okay." Jax said, rubbing his back gently. He pulled himself closer to the boy, unscrewing the cap on his juice to drink some of it. He wrinkled his nose, and screwed the cap back on, tossing it into the trash. "Someone stubbed their toe on the sugar in that." He said, shaking his head. "I feel the diabetes coming on." He shifted his weight getting comfortable. He yawned, closing his eyes. "I'm gonna miss you when you go.."
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