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Post by jaxton matthew sanders on Jun 17, 2012 21:36:18 GMT -5
Jax bit his lip, reaching over to brush the blood from his bottom lip. "I'd take it all away if I could, Z.." He breathed, looking the boy over. It broke his heart to see him like this. He didn't know what he was supposed to do to make it better, like how he used to bring him to bed when he drank a little too much or those nights he would rub his back when he was sick. But there's nothing he could do now.
"If selling my soul would take it away from you, I'd sell it a million times." He kissed the corner of his mouth, then pulled away slowly. "I'll go wet you a towel, okay?"
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Post by zephyr preston martinez on Jun 17, 2012 21:46:33 GMT -5
"No Jax.. Y-...you can't..." He didn't want him to sell his soul. He suffered enough already. He nodded slowly at the question and slid to the floor, dropping his head between his knees as he coughed, groaning. This sucked. All he had wanted was a little fun with Jax.
'You can't keep me from him you fucking cheat. You can't change who I am...'
A warm trickle from his nose and he cursed, laughed bitterly. "Yeah, you're fricken hilarious," He muttered.
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Post by jaxton matthew sanders on Jun 17, 2012 21:58:59 GMT -5
"I know I can't." He said, then left to go get him a towel. He wet it a bit, then walked back. He knelt down in front of him, reaching over to gently wipe the blood from his face, then his hands before he got up and walked back to the bathroom. He handed him a dry one to hold under his nose, then sat down next to him. he stretched out his legs, folding his hands together over his stomach. He closed his eyes, his thoughts running through everything they had done today, and a smile crept to his lips. He reached down and gently unwrapped the film from his wrist, then ran his finger over the tattoo there, Zephyr's guitar pick.
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Post by zephyr preston martinez on Jun 17, 2012 22:05:08 GMT -5
Zephyr mumbled a thanks, holding it to his nose, scowling at the laughter in his head. "I woulda gone further with you, you know.." He murmured, resting his head on Jaxton's shoulder with a gusty breath. He smiled faintly despite what had just happened. He was hard to keep down for long. Especially when he had just found the person he had given his own soul up for. He studied the tattoo that Jaz uncovered, reached out with his free hand and took his own. "See..? I was always with you..."
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Post by jaxton matthew sanders on Jun 17, 2012 22:10:29 GMT -5
"Despite what I am, it doesn't have to be about sex. I'm happy to just have you here in my arms." He said with a smile. He squeezed his hand gently, looking at the tattoo. It looked just like his pick. "I thought about you every day. I wondered if you'd found someone, or if maybe you'd got some important job somewhere. If you'd changed your tastes and decided to marry a woman and have little babies. But I wondered most if you thought about me half as much as I thought about you.. And I always prayed. Every night, even if I don't pray. You know that. But I just did.. It made me feel a little better, thinking maybe it would help.." He shrugged, leaning over to kiss him slowly. "I'll do more than make out with you if you decide you want to be my boyfriend. Not a day sooner."
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Post by zephyr preston martinez on Jun 17, 2012 23:42:41 GMT -5
Zephyr smiled. "Me? With a girl?" He scoffed, setting the bloodied paper towel aside once he was sure his nose had stopped bleeding. "I thought about you ever day, Jaxton, dreamed about our memories every night. It was hell, and at the same time.. It was a reason to get up every morning, hope. I wondered, too, if you had settled down, gone far.. If you still had this.." He reached up, touching the picks gently. "When I saw you last night, I thought it was me just seeing things again.." He bit his lip. "Saw you guys a lot, you know.. Sometimes couldn't even go to work it got so bad.." He played gently with Jaxton's fingers. "I would be your boyfriend in a heartbeat, Jax... I always would have, all you had to do was ask." He smiled.
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Post by jaxton matthew sanders on Jun 18, 2012 0:47:14 GMT -5
Jaxton watched him play with his fingers, just listening to the familiar, soothing voice talk to him. He wouldn't have traded it for anything, hearing him talk. It was what he had been missing for years. "I didn't wanna.. have you think I'm some creep or something.. I remember staying the night at your house and wondering if you liked anyone, and who it was. You'd fall asleep, and I'd watch your chest rise and fall, and you'd look so innocent." He glanced over at him, squeezing his hand gently. He kissed the corner of his mouth, then his lips. "So you'll be my boyfriend?"
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Post by zephyr preston martinez on Jun 18, 2012 1:05:10 GMT -5
Zephyr smirked. "Innocent, right," He huffed softly, eyes half closing at the kiss. He continued to play with his hand, felt his cheeks grow hot. "I would be honored to be your crazy ass boyfriend." Grinning crookedly, he rested his head back down on Jaxton's shoulder again.
'I gave you what you want. And I'll give you today. But don't think you won't pay for it.'
'Thank you...' He thought, pleased. He didn't care if he had to pay later on. For once Satan was giving him a break.
'He says that but does he mean it?'
'Yeah, don't get your hopes so high, it's the devil after all..
'Shut up...'
Hr hugged Jaxton closer.
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Post by jaxton matthew sanders on Jun 18, 2012 1:10:17 GMT -5
Jax smiled, gently stroking his cheek. "I wouldn't have it any other way.." He said quietly, letting go of his hand to cup his cheek. He kissed him as deeply as he could manage, a sudden rush of butterflies filling his stomach. He had only dreamed of having Zeph as his boyfriend, had never actually thought it would happen. He moved so he was in front of him, gently pushing his knees apart so he could feel Zeph's chest against his, kissing him sweetly. He wrapped his arms slowly around his waist, completely mesmerized by him.
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Post by zephyr preston martinez on Jun 18, 2012 8:10:57 GMT -5
Zephyr met the kiss with a content breath, hugging Jim close willingly. He traced his hand up Jaxton's back, trying to let what had seemed to be impossible sink in. Jax had really asked.. He had always figured maybe he didn't like him in that sense. "You're so perfect.."
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Post by jaxton matthew sanders on Jun 18, 2012 14:36:06 GMT -5
Jax hugged him tightly, laying his head on the boy's shoulder. "If I'm perfect, then you must be God." He breathed, running his fingers slowly over the boy's back. Everyone had always paled in comparison to Zephyr, in his eyes.
"I kinda got something to tell you.." He mumbled, moving so he was sitting beside him. "And.. I would've told you earlier if I hadn't just checked my wallet on the way to the bathroom and realized literally all I have is like, thirty bucks and my license.. But I.. I'm pretty much dying.. I went to the doctor for the flu, and he told me I needed a check-up and so I went.." He shrugged, reaching up to fix his nose ring. "And they ran all these tests and he.. told me that my mom.. When she had me -well, the entire time she was pregnant for me- her and my dad were in Africa and they didn't have doctors and stuff like that over there. But the doctor pretty much told me I got fucked because when she had me, she didn't have a c-section like the other kids, and my mom had AIDS.. So I got it from her, and he started on about treatment and all that bull, but he said that.. I've had it for, forever and that he's pretty sure it won't be much longer before it gets a lot worse.. So we aren't doing anything without protection. I'm not getting you sick." He messed with his fingers, too afraid to look Zephyr in the eye.
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Post by zephyr preston martinez on Jun 18, 2012 14:50:59 GMT -5
Zephyr let out a shaky breath, jaw trembling. He worked it to stop the motion. 'Fuck...'
Satan laughed and he gritted his teeth, swallowed. "I... Wow..." He chewed on his lip, honestly wasn't worried about getting sick, but was worried about being the reason Jaxton ever might get sick because of him. Because he knew, a cold for somebody with AIDs could be a death sentence. His grip on Jaxton's hand tightened and he just rested his head on his shoulders, at a loss of what to say. He hadn't know, it wasn't fair that he had lost so many valuable years.
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Post by jaxton matthew sanders on Jun 18, 2012 14:58:51 GMT -5
"My reaction was more like 'fuck. me.' but I guess wow works." He mumbled, hoping to at least get a smile out of the boy. "I.. just.. I guess it'll make you feel better to know I honestly haven't been with that many people.. Not that I was with a lot before.. So yeah, I guess we're both messes, huh?" He reached over, tipping his chin back to kiss him softly. "I'm not trying to make you feel bad. I just didn't want you to like.. start undoing my jeans or something and I have to flat out tell you no." He ran his fingers slowly over his cheek. "Can I hold you now?"
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Post by zephyr preston martinez on Jun 18, 2012 15:18:01 GMT -5
Zephyr licked his lips, smiled the faintest bit. He kissed him softly, curling up more. "Yeah, guess that's better..." He breathed, smiled at the question. "Of course.." He scooted over, climbing carefully into Jaxton's lap, kissing him again.
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Post by jaxton matthew sanders on Jun 18, 2012 15:26:13 GMT -5
Jax wrapped his arms firmly around him, kissing him softly. He slowly ran his fingers up and down his back, his heart racing again. The boy was so close to him he could literally feel his chest move with every breath. 'I must've done something right.' He thought, reaching up to slowly run his fingers through his hair as he kissed him a little deeper. "Mm.. What happens if we just sit here and make out until you gotta get to work?" He teased, looking him over before he met his eyes again.
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