[CLOSED] how high can you fly with broken wings?

[tisha noelle gillespie]

"Don't be sorry." She whispered, watching her mom come up with her nurse's bag. She bit her lip. watching as her mom pulled away the towels and Noelle's ripped shirt.

"You tore up your favorite shirt?" Her mother asked, obviously shocked.

"I had to.. He was bleeding and I couldn't get to the towels.." She mumbled, slowly running her fingers through his hair. She heard her father picking up the mess she made in the hall, looking away as her mother started to stitch him up. She held him close, gently laying her head on top of his. "It's okay.."

[sedrick fidelis johnson]

Sedrick could barely even feel the sting of the needle, his arms to numb, fingertips feeling cold. He didn't stir as Noelle hugged him close, breaths still faint. He had stopped crying though, felt beyond dizzy. And then Richard was back again as Noelle's mother finished his first wrist, and he felt his hand being pried flat and carefully scrubbed free of blood. He shifted his weight the slightest bit, had never touched the drugs tossed by his feet. Lifting a leg with what little energy he had, he pushed it back towards Noelle's father, opening his eyes to look up at him brokenly, guilt etched across his pale face.

[tisha noelle gillespie]

Noelle watched her father pick up the bag again, and walk off with it. She was suddenly terrified. What if they took them back because there was drugs in the house? What if they took him because Sedrick was hurting himself and they thought they were bad? 'They can't take them..' She thought, looking over at Richard. Her heart pounded and she looked over at her mother, the woman working slowly and tediously on his arm before she snipped the end of the black line. Then her mother left to go put everything back, and Noelle kissed the top of Sedrick's head. "Everything's okay.."

[sedrick fidelis johnson]

Sedrick watched him leave, and glanced up at Richard's hurt face. Swallowing, he looked away as his brother left the room to tend to the puppy again.
"No it's not..." He mumbled weakly, couldn't find the strength to stand. His jeans felt digusting, clinging to his legs with blood. He didn't care though. "I'm sorry about your shirt..."

[tisha noelle gillespie]

She blushed madly when she finally realized she had on nothing but her shorts. And that Richard was right there by her. "Oh my God.. I'm an idiot." She said, pulling the towel around to cover her. She had blood all over her hands, and over her legs. She could feel parts of her shorts wet with it, and her stomach sticky from it. "I'm not worried about the shirt. I got a ton of shirts. I'm always ruining them." She said with a smile. She sat back carefully, making sure she wasn't sitting in blood before she bit her lip. "To be fair, you had to see me half naked, so I guess both of us were mortified today." She teased, hoping to get a smile out of him.

[sedrick fidelis johnson]

The faintest ghost of a smile passed his lips at that, and he shook his head slowly, as best as he could manage. But it didn't last long. He knew they hadn't signed up for this. All parents wanted were normal kids... He was worried about what they would think, worried he would ruin Richard's chances at a semi normal life because of his own problems. He could hear his brother in the other room murmuring things to the whimpering puppy, closed his eyes with a gusty breath. He didn't want to try getting up, still felt far to dizzy.

[tisha noelle gillespie]

"I'm gonna go make sure your brother's okay, then I'll be back, okay? You two worry me." She kissed the side of his head before she got up, holding the towel tightly around her chest. She peeked into the rooms until she found Richard, and she bit her lip.

"Are you okay? You need a hug?" She asked, shifting her weight a bit. She felt completely stupid standing there like this in front of the guy she had a growing crush on. "I'm really sorry.. I-... I'd give you guys back your mom if I could.."

[sedrick fidelis johnson]

Sedrick nodded, watching her go before drawing his knees up, shifting his weight in discomfort.

Richard glanced up as she wandered in, hesitated. "I'm fine.." He mumbled. Pain crossed his features at her next words. "Yeah.. Well.." He shrugged. ."What happens, happens..." He offered dryly and looked back down at the puppy.
He had an urge to ask Sedrick what the hell he had been thinking, but instead set the pup in the shoe box and got up, heading for the bathroom. He pulled Sedrick up by a shoulder, undoing his jeans and tugging them off.

Sedrick watched him clean the blood off his legs, thinking he could do it himself. But he didn't utter a word, stumbling slightly. Richard grew gentler, leading him to the bed before disappearing downstairs.
Sedrick bit his lip, watching Noelle brokenly as he curled up in the bed alone, reaching to trace still numb fingers over the picture in the frame on his nightstand.

[tisha noelle gillespie]

It killed her to see the boys like this, and she walked off to her bathroom to wash the blood from her. She made her way to her room, and changed into a sun dress before she walked back into Sedrick's room. She sat down next to him, looking at the picture of his mother. She was beautiful, and Noelle wished she was almost as pretty as her. But every mother seemed to be naturally beautiful. 'I'll never know what that's like..' She thought, biting her lip to keep back the tears. She's always told her mother she wanted to be a mommy like her, and now she couldn't.

"I'm not gonna let you die, Sedrick.. Your mom deserves to look down on her two precious sons and watch them have families one day or be successful in life. You have to live for them, because they're gone now. I know because I died once too." She pulled her legs up close. "And all the other angels were so sad that everyone kept dwelling on their death instead of celebrating their lives. It's okay to miss your moma. Just make her proud." She reached over, gently playing with his hair. "Can you at least try for me? For your mom?"

[sedrick fidelis johnson]

"It's not that easy..." He whispered. "You didn't see it happen.. I-... Every time I close my eyes I see it.. And in my head, every day, it's all they talk about... I-.. I shoulda done something.. I couldn't save him..but her, I could have..." Tears rolled down his cheeks and fell to his pillow. "I don't wanna remember them like that... But that's all I fucking see.." He rubbed at an eye, glancing up as Richard brought him a glass of juice and their breakfast before leaving again.

[tisha noelle gillespie]

Noelle was honestly starting to think that Richard didn't like her, or didn't want to be there. So she climbed into bed behind Sedrick, gently rubbing his back as she layed down. "I know it's hard.. My friends had to watch me die.. I had to struggle to breath in car fumes until my lungs burned.. You couldn't have stopped it because it was her time to go." She played with his hair gently, closing her eyes.

[sedrick fidelis johnson]

"No it wasn't!" He cried angrily. "No it wasn't... Not like that..." He closed his eyes, not hungry despite knowing food would get his energy back. He drew in quick breaths, upset by the thought of it being true. "He deserved to fucking die.. He's not gonna leave that court room alive.." He growled. And it was clear he meant it.

[tisha noelle gillespie]

She continued to play with his hair, refusing to say anything else. She hated having everything she said contradicted, so she just didn't say anything at all. She looked up as her dad came in, rambling off the chores she needed to get done. She nodded and climbed carefully out of bed and started downstairs to put water on to boil to mop the upstairs bathroom before she walked outside to clean the pool.

"If you clean off the barbeque, I'll make us some burgers for dinner." He said, following her outside to grab the towels on the deck.

"Yes sir." She said, watching him go back inside before she pulled the pool noodles out to rinse them off.

[richard marcus johnson]

Sedrick watched her go, closing his eyes as he cried.
'Get it together you idiot.'
He bit his lip, rubbing at an eye and drinking down his juice before he snuggled into the blankets. Reaching out, he gently lifted the puppy and held it close, and soon drifted to sleep.

Richard had been sitting on the stairs, head in his hands as he listened to them. He glanced up as Noelle passed, and stood to follow her and help, figured he owed it. "Your parents pissed..?" He mumbled.

[tisha noelle gillespie]

"Huh?" She looked up, pulling the last inner tube onto the concrete. "No? Why would they be? I was the one that wanted the pool so I gotta keep it clean is all. They're not mad." She pulled them across the lawn to the water hose, then laid them out before she started to spray them with the garden hose. Then she pulled the back, and started to fish the leaves out of the pool.

"I've never actually seen my parents mad. I mean, besides that time the neighbor boy came over drunk and I was swimming and took my top off. But.." She leaned over, plucking another leaf out before tossing it to the yard. "That's understandable. I mean.. its not like you guys asked for this. It's gonna be hard to get used to the fact your mom isn't here and you're living with people you don't know from Adam." She shrugged, tossing another leaf to the yard before she looked over at him.